RHOSLC star Jennie Nguyen SLAMMED for ‘pulling the I have a black friend card’ in apology video

2022.01.27 15:12 newsfeedmedia1 RHOSLC star Jennie Nguyen SLAMMED for ‘pulling the I have a black friend card’ in apology video

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2022.01.27 15:12 Alternative_Market30 [rant] i feel like running away and im scared

hello, okay maybe i should put a trigger warning but i dont know how that works so before i get to the main point, i would like to mention that i will be talking about suicidal/violent thoughts, bad rs with parents? and running away from home (like the title has mentioned)
okay to give some info about me, im turning 17 this year, just finished olevels and received results a few weeks back and is awaiting jae posting results. regarding how well i do in my academics, i would say im a pretty average student having attained a pretty average score for L1R5. i dont really get stress easily while studying (after receiving my current grades i think i should be) and i had always found a way out of whatever situations that could be holding me back. im also the the oldest child in my family, with two younger siblings.
ill talk about my rs with my parents first. as the big sister, ive always had alot of pressure being put on me to be the best of the best coming from my parents. definition of "best" to them means that i would always let my siblings have their way, take care of them when i couldnt even take care of myself, and being forced to never complain even as i watched all the love go to them, with none left for me. i dont remember much from my childhood, but the few memories i had were all of me getting beaten at home and even in public. i can only think of all the hurt ive gone through as a child, and yet whenever i tried to communicate this pain to my parents, i would only get yelled at more. my siblings never made things easier for me too. they knew how my parents would always protect them, from me, and so they knew exactly how to provoke me without them getting into trouble themselves. my mum would always say that they were "smart" for learning how to do that, which, how can she say that?? can she not see how much ive been struggling to defend myself everytime im the one getting into trouble instead? okay but that isnt the main concern. about 2 years ago when i just entered sec 3, i had a major change in personality as i was going through some shit in school in sec 2 (friendship problems), which really allowed me to mature quite alot and learned how to become more disciplined (maybe an overstatement hahah). and so i started doing house chores on my own (because i was tired of everyone at home being lazy asf). like not just any chores, like major makeovers (my house is very messy and dirty btw). i moved alot of furnitures on my own. washed all of them, organised the whole kitchen and my desks all by myself. i did do chores in the past, occasionally helping to mop and sweep the floor, but this was extremely tiring, especially with the amount of junk pilling up. and because of that, my parents started showing me more love, which, wasnt that all i have been wanting from the beginning? yes and no. what i wanted was unconditional love. they have never ever been proud of me before, or atleast have not shown me that they were. but once i started receiving alot of awards and started getting good results, they would always brag about me to their friends. am i just their trophy collector? okay this might give away my identity but my mum is also a kpop fan. and all she does is talk about her kpop boys. at first i was more than willing to sit there and hear her talk about them for hours, because if its something she loves, i will learn to love it too. but as hours, months, years passed by, i realised she showed little to no interest in my life. heres how our daily convo would go : "mummy today i met a new friend at work", "okay good. you know _________ is coming out with a new album and ________ did a instagram live yesterday and it was hilarious". even during my edusave award ceremony, she was too busy texting her online friends she met on twitter than to listen to our mp talk, even though it was extremely boring, but even if she were to just stare into space, i would have been alittle more happier that day. so with that said, i really dk if i have a bad rs with my parents anot, atleast to them we dont. but im so so tired of pretending im okay around them.
okay heres the second point, about my extremely violent thoughts. i realise i have alot of resentment in me, and i really dont want to be this way. i want to be calm and collected but i always fail to do so. i have no idea how to explain in detail so ill just give one of my many personal encounters. last month at work, i encountered a terrible customer. he yelled at me and called me stupid and it really just made me felt horrible. i was working the night shift that day, and so guess what i did to make myself feel better, i fantasized about myself beating the crap out of that men. like punching, kicking, body slamming and all the awful stuff. it scared me honestly. in my mind, i was this fierce, strong powerful girl that no one dared to mess with. but irl, im extremely timid asf. whats funny is that i literally have hemophobia and yet, in my fantasies, im often drenched in blood. i often find myself disappointed with myself whenever i have these thoughts, because its not who i am, and its not who i want to be ever.
heres the serious talk i guess. i have had suicidal thoughts for quite a long time. but i guess i just always found a way to ignore them. it hasnt gotten worser nor better, but i just want to get rid of them once and for all. sometimes i have thoughts like "if i really were to ***, will the people around me be sorry". its like i only want to do it as a sort of revenge? like i want to yell at everyone who has done me wrong, shout at them for the way they have treated me, tell them what horrible humans they are. but arent i just like them myself? the harm i have done to others. the wrongdoings that i have constantly committed onto the people i love. the bad person that i had become. im disgusted with myself, im disappointed with the kind of person that i am today. im filled with hatred, greed and pride.
all these thing makes me feel like running away. like not now ofc, im incapable of taking care of my basic necessities. but today i imagined what my life would look like in the future. i imagined myself having a good job, studying what i like, having a nice family of my own, and moving into the house of my dreams. but i also imagined myself cutting contact with my family. i imagined myself not going back to celebrate cny with my family. i imagined myself not talking to my family anymore. im filled with so much resentment for them that having them out of my life did not seem so sad to me anymore. and i dont want it to be that way. i want them to be in my life as much as i want to be in theirs. i wish things could be different, really.
okay thats the end. i feel sooooooo much better now. thanks for providing me a platform to share my thoughts and feelings ❤. if anyone figures out who i am, pleaseee reach out to me, i think its nicer to have someone i know talk to me. but i cant reach out to my friends either because they have the impression that i am someone who has my shit together. i mean i have tried before, and from their reaction i could tell they really didnt know how to help me either. okay thats all.
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2022.01.27 15:12 hannah51504 is this a separate movie? or is it just part of degrassi??

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2022.01.27 15:12 urtypicalsandnig So my dog got in a fight with another dog according to my vet and was prescribed anti-inflammatory meds over a week and a half ago. I just saw this spot on his leg and im really worried. I called my vet and he said that it was just the infection had went to one spot. Is this worrying?

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2022.01.27 15:12 newsfeedmedia1 Booster vaccine works JUST as well against ‘even more infectious’ strain of Omicron

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2022.01.27 15:12 -Curious-Rabbit Accidentally made a design that's replacing my main sona, oops. 😅 Anywho, just wanted to post them, so here they are!

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2022.01.27 15:12 SourCabbage Postville school bus was too close to tracks when hit by train, accident report says

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2022.01.27 15:12 pattch JAMUARY DAY 27 [LOOPING]

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2022.01.27 15:12 VickyTheBoss69 Is one piece coming to Netflix

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2022.01.27 15:12 The_Memewalker Is Yorick halal? I must know

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2022.01.27 15:12 nixthewiz [WTS] Cartier Tank Solo Large Stainless Steel

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2022.01.27 15:12 wobblyheadedgirl Is it really Munchausen?

Do all the subjects in this sub really have Munchausen by internet? Where is the line between MBI, hypocondria, search for clout and plain scamming?
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2022.01.27 15:12 peter-vankman Coming down for a trip

Hello all.
got some friends coming into town and we might drive down to nola to do a bourbon street visit. Anyone know how strict they are with the vaccine rules? I am vaccinated but a few others are not.
thanks all
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2022.01.27 15:12 ChuuniSaysHi Plushies!

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2022.01.27 15:12 AdministrativeSky236 Automated Strike Zone or nah?

What does everyone think? Since the automated strike zone is going to AAA, do you support it moving to the MLB if the kinks are worked out?
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2022.01.27 15:12 newsfeedmedia1 Meghan McCain blasts ‘reckless, stupid’ Sarah Palin for dining out with COVID

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2022.01.27 15:12 Matrix_H2O Gure nya

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2022.01.27 15:12 bluemlittlem Ratio'd by a 19th century composer smh

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2022.01.27 15:12 No-Ear-3107 Fan art of Boba Fett having a violent adventure

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2022.01.27 15:12 ReddyFreddy- I know that this is heresy...

But I don't care how my pans look. I don't care if they're shiny and gorgeous or if they're dark and have "imperfect" seasoning and utensil marks.
They cook things beautifully with minimal oil, and that's all I really care about.
Evidence: 1. Corn bread (from an old family recipe. No sugar because that's what Granny said.) 2. Leftover corn bread made into corn bread fritters 3. Pot pie 4. Mandu) and mini bindaedok, Korean versions of wontons and a type of pancake, sort of.
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2022.01.27 15:12 SisterPixie Is $3 million really enough though? Fines like these to big corporations are nothing more than a slap on the wrist and don’t solve the problem.

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2022.01.27 15:12 RedditUser2733681872 i know this person personally, they also happen to have DID and uses that one typing quirk where you replace the s with z.. i would link their carrd but it has their discord and it might genuinely give someone a seizure

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2022.01.27 15:12 kitty_goth_ Upvote this post and comment. I'll upvote comments :)

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2022.01.27 15:12 d4r3n584 I thought it would be nice to engrave my O11 XL. What are your thoughts?

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2022.01.27 15:12 newsfeedmedia1 Tilly Ramsay joins Max George at their hotel in Newcastle ahead of Strictly live tour

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